Retrospect

With hindsight I think I can see why these events over the last few days have happened. I guess it is because recently I have been trying to let out something that I have kept form everybody, something that I guess only one person would understand. Well that all changed last night.

Last night was very dark, so dark, I am surprised I pulled through it. But I opened up. And, well it made things better in one way. but it made things worse aswell.

I guess now will be my chance to get the help I have needed all of this time. I found that yesterday evening, I was starting to slip back into my old ways. As now I had faced the truths, I cannot help but take this route. Also, I just feel so alone. So alone. People tell me they will help me. But it just doesn't seem enough. I know that this is awfully selfish and may make people think Iam greedy.

I just hope that now, people will see, that this is my chance to change , and therefore become a better person.
I feel that I am already changing.