Suns Coming Over The Hills

"You were lucky if you were sufficiently strong, to daily decide not to die."


I was told this by a friend, whom I know who has been though alot, far more than I have. But it means alot. Recently I have been thinking alot. About who I am, what I am doing, and most importantly what others think about me. I think that maybe the situations which I am in are wrong, I am not portraying what I am truely like, as I am afraid that I will loose those closest to me.
I am sure that they will not abandon me, or leave me. But I am too insecure to take the risk.
I hope that soon I will take this risk. And show the world who I truely am.

We Can Rule The World.....

Yea you and me, we can ride on a star
If you stay with me girl
We can rule the wurrrllld!

I love that song so much and hopefully tomorrow I am going to watch the stardust movie. Can't wait. Even if the story line is not good, I have a feeling that the main guy in it is half decent looking, so if I do get bored there is at least something good to watch!

Tom is still in America. From what I have ehard he is having a great time! I wish I was tehre with him, and he wishes the same! Pesky parents would not be there and we would just have a great time

Well Sunday nihght Jaz came round and we met up with Lucy. I then slept over her and on Monday we met up with Lucy in town and did a bit of shopping. It was good to catch up with her

Well I am going to go now. As I have a sore throat and it takn me so long to write this and I am very tired!

Howdy!!

Yes, there is an American theme to this post, as Tom is now in America, or will be quite shortly. I saw him yesterday to say my goodbyes... yes its a bit silly as I am seeing him in about 10 days... but I do miss him alot. But in a way its good, as I think these breaks help things along... just wish I was there with him.

Not much has happend today, just the usual school. But I am so glad that it is half term next wekk as there is a stack of work to be done and I have left it until then. Also there is one thing I am glad about Tom being in America for, I get to do the work!

I did find out today though that this girl in my year, who is cquite chubby and ginger, is going to go to this halloween party dressed as a fairy. I wasn't going to go to this party, but when I heard about this and the fact that she spent £40 on the outfit, it made me change my mind!

Well it's Friday tomorrow, but to be honest the half term cant come quick enough!

Rain, rain, go away. Come back here another day!

I don't know what it is, but I feel that many people around me are "stuck in a rut". Many seem to act the same as they did 1, 2, 3 or even 4 years ago. I wish that some people would just change for the better. But for themselves and not just other peoples sake.
Today has not been great. Full of the usual ridicule that I will never get used to, not matter how long it goes on for. The more I seem to ignore it, the worse it seems to get, as people seem to think that I just don't realise that it is going on. I guess that there really is no solution.
I don't really know what else to say. I can't really think as my brain is still trying to put todays thoughts straight in my head.
But I know that I do want to take up photography. I just don't have a half decent camera. :-(

I Can't Do The Talk, Like They Talk on the TV

Today has been the first day back at school of the week, quite obviously. And it has been relatively easy. Thank god, as the weekend has been jam packed.
After work on Saturday, which I got a pay rise (from £4.75 ph to £5.00), I went home. I had a really bad headache so I called off meeting up with Jaz, but seeing as it is half term next week it doesn't really matter. I then bussed my way to Street, which was quite amusing as I had to convice the bus driver that I did not have to pay for a full price ticket, which actually, thinking back, was more annoying than amusing. Anyway, get to Street and then Tom and I hung out a bit with his mates, which was alright.
Sunday, Tom and I went to Yeovil, did a bit of shopping and a bit of bowling... this weird drunk ginger bloke managed to scab 50 pence off us for his "bus fare", more like cider fund.
It was just such a great weekend being with Tom, and I have missed so much the whole staying over at his, i just enjoy it so much!
We also watched a bit of the ruggers, of which of course England beat France. Ha!
Don't really know what else I can talk about.. all I can think about is Tom, its just been such a great weekend. But I won't go on, as I do not want to be one of those people who is a boyfriend bore.
Me and my friends are orgnaising this camping party thing for over the half term. Yes, it will be freezing, yes we are slightly mad, but it should be a right laugh!!!! We have the venue planned... just the date lol
Anway, better be off, have to finish my french coursework about Pavarotti. Ha ha!!

I Can't Wait For The Weekend To Begin...

Why hello there!
Today has been rather relaxed, yet painful. As I am coming to the end of this cold my sinuses have become ever so painful. It is horrible, and trying to get through double A/S history at the end of a very long week was actually quite hard.
I went to the doctors earlier, only to get some more inhalers for my asthma and to get some stuff for my ears!
Early night tonight mind, i have work early, and I am already knackered! But tomorrow I am seeing Jaz which should be great, as I haven't seen her since Lucy's party and that was only very briefly.Last time I went over to her Dad's house was at Easter, that was before the french exchange! As you can tell, so much has happened since then and a couple of hours I feel really won't be enough.
After that I am bussing my way over to Tom's house, which involves waiting for 50 minutes between two buses. But luckily the stop is very close to my grandparents house so I will wait there. Bloody rural transport it is rubbish! So expesnive for such a crap service!

Anyway hope the weekend will be alright, that's if I am not feeling as weird as I did earlier!!!

Stardust.....

The proof of me being a 90's child is beginning to show... I keep getting Spice Girls and Take That tunes (new and old) stuck into my head. And I seem to very much like the STardust song by Take that! O dear, o dear o dear!

Last night, Tom came over. It was just so great to see him again after this time. So much has happened in the last 2 or so weeks, and.. well, I don't know. It was kind of surreal and it seemed that the gap in between when we last met was just a blur. But it was worth it. I feel that now we are more fresh and better for it. These feelings are just indiscribable really... which is a poo for you as you can't get right in my head.. but I guess the only thing I can say, is that I love him.

Ok, ok, less soppy stuff. Today I have started a mini war between two teachers at school because of my work experience placement in July... I hope so much that I am able to go to Toulouse as it will be such an amazing oppurtunity, but if I don't, well thats just life!!

Other then that, nothing much has really happend. Just the same old stuff. Except for the fact that I have recently got in touch with quite a few people from my primary school in London. It is so great to get in touch with them again, and to be honest, quite weird! Most of them, I have to admit have turned out t be right chavs... but a few of them, mainly the ones who I was quite close to haven't! Which is good!

Dan admited to me that he has glandular fever. He decided to tell me that after I had some of his drink. Very annoyed about that. Hopefully its ok though :-S

I can't think of anything more to write about at the moment, so ta ta for now!!

Booogies

No, I have not joined Dick and Dom on their conquest to take over the world with this ingenous game of theirs, but I have infact been quite ill with a horrible cold. Therfore I didn't actually get round to seeing Tom on Sunday, as he was ill aswell. But he is coming here tomorrow evening which should be good!

In the previous post I think my hormones must of been running quite high.... and as I was coming down with something I don't think that I was being honest... I was just being blinded

Well today we sat a GCSE reading paper in French, but ti was the foundation tier. Anyway, I got full marks... I was quite happy considering I guessed about 3 of the answers! And used a bit of lateral thinking in the sense they wouldnt have three option B's on the multi choice!

Today I did receive a whole tube of smarties as I did the lovely job of litter duty. I seemed to make Lucy and Hannah crack up in hysterics, but this was soon cut short as they were stolen by a very ungratful teacher.

Anyway, less about that. I am still a bit bunged up and my voice keeps going as I have an awful cough Also as I am all blocked up my hearing has gone even wrose then it usually is. i really need to get it checked out as I fell that the ear, of which I have perferated the ear drum, is getting slowly worse. If I was to go deaf then that would be very tragic as I would love to go places.. when you are deaf that can't happen so much, no offence to any deaf people out there!

Im GREEN aba dee aba doo

This morning I woke up from a very vivid and emotional dream. In it, I was picked to go on a rocket to Pluto, where we would explore the planet. I was really upset about this as I felt that I was going to die. Anyway i didn't, and on our way to Pluto, in the plug hole of the kitchen sink (on the rocket), this green hand came up though it. And of course we all knew that it was this alien whch wanted to kill us, so we killed it. Well we got to Pluto and it was very much like this planet, but the rules and laws were alot stricter then they are here. And then we returned to my school and it was empty except for me and Tom. Just a crazy dream!!

Anyway, I am sure you would like to know some more real stuff. Today was inset day, so that meant no school. Thank god, I hate it so much. Anyway last night I was pretty upset.. as on ebay there was this dress I really liked and didn't really have enough money. I showed it to Tom, trying to hint to him, but he didnt really pick up on it. He told me he would of 'loved to of seen me in it ', but he didnt go any further then that. I thought that maybe he could of been romantic and bought it for me without me knowing, but he obviously hasn't :(
I don't intend to sound spoilt, but sometimes I feel that he doesn't treat me any different then if I was his freind... which reminds me recently he has got really tight over money, maybe he has bought something he shouldn't of :-S

Well today I did shit all. I had to get up early though as I had to see Max across the main road to school and after that I counted up my coins and found I had £15 so I went and cashed it in at the Halifax. I thought that they would have some scales to weigh out the money but she had to count it all by hand, and most of it was coppers :-S

This afternoon I haven't really done much. But one of Mike's freinds has just phoned asking where Mike was. I said that he was at Ross's on a sleepover, and the guy phoning was at Ross's and said that Mike and Ross weren't there. I hope he is alright as Ross is the sort of guy who is likely to do something extremely stupid.

Tomorrow early start, work. At least it means money! Abbi wants me to meet her in Yeovil, but I am trying to save on money.
And on Sunday I am going out with Tom, first time we have met up since our "break". I hope it goes ok!
I will post you about it later
Wish me luck!